Who Am I ???

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone. My name was given by my parent and proudly it is Noramin Mohammad which mean that sincerity and honesty according to Muslims meaning. This year I am getting older yet next 22nd September 08, I will be 22 years old. I am currently living in my own house at Ampang, and I miss home a lot. Personally, I am a very open minded person. Once you know me, you will find me either annoying or you just can’t get enough of me. Most of the time, I like hanging out and go wild with my friends, but sometimes I just rather chill and watch TV at home. I like traveling, cooking, shopping, going to gym and doing stuff like other guys did. As natural human being I have my own weaknesses that I need to cope with. Firstly, I really need to develop my interpersonal and communication skills. Without these I won't be able to survive in this complicated world. I'm a type of person who keeps to myself and relies only on my own ability, disregarding others but then I'm not completely anti-social because usually I give help to others. The flaw here is that I gain nothing in return but then I continue to be a kind person which when the time comes when I have to work for a living, I need to totally eliminate this kindness. In this rat eat rat world I shouldn't waste my time helping others. Maybe today it would be significant but then in the outside world there are a number of people who would try to take advantage of you. In the past, I have been made a fool of. It is because I lack these skills. As a minor, the consequences of this loss isn't that great but in the future, in the outside world, the consequences could be grave and it may even cause me to fall into an endless abyss where I could never recover from. These two skills shall be my sword and shield to help me fight in the battle of life. In addition, I need to expose myself more to people. It’s been a habit of mine to expect the worst from other people. I probably inherited it or got it from my mother. Maybe chains of distrust run in my blood. Sometimes I also anticipate too much from a person, leading to disappointment after. It’s only now that I'm exposed to people unlike in the past but I don't think this is enough. I need to expose myself more. I have this certain view of the world that now I'm beginning to doubt. I need to understand this actual world I live in, not the fantasy, conservative world that I grew up in. I'm starting to believe that conservative minded people cannot survive anymore in this world. "Be good and you shall be given merit" I now see this as false. Nice guys would always finish last no matter how you look at it. I think better stop here now, since this is not an essay writing contest. If you lots want to know me more, just send me e-mail at noramin_mohammad@live.com. Send me some messages if you like but don’t really expect me to reply it soon after that because I am pretty busy but I will come back to you in time. Love you all. Hugs and kisses from me. My attitude towards life is I should take every opportunity that comes to me; don't ever hesitate because i think it is wrong.